i mmisss yoou!!

i loved siting by your bed. holding your hand, while feeling your warmth. i loved it when you sqeezed my hands. your frendly greetings, was what made my day. the warmth in your smile, was what set me ablaze. to watch you suffer from your illness, was hard enough for me to bear with! yet to watch you die, felt like u took me away with you.

when i held ur hand that windy april evening, and i didnt recieve that special warm greeting from you, i knew that something had gone terribly wrong. i panicked. i didnt know what to do, or what was going on. ur body was cold, and your eyes were just lookng up. you didnt move. you just laid there, very still, lifeless, without even knowing that i was there. by the look of it, it didnt seem like you would be with us for the next couple of hours, but then again, u never did.

theres nothing more painful, than to lose someone close to you. At first, you would be indenial, thinkin that they would come back some time soon. but in reality, they are gone forever. as i see u layin lifelessly on the bed, i keep thinkin that it wasnt death. that you just fainted, and you will gain conscienciousness very soon. but you never did. that didnt weight me down, as i had still had hope of you coming back.

It was very hard for me to let you go, and it took alot from me, to try and convince myself that u were long gone. i knew that i had not only lost the only sister sister i had from my mom's side, but i had also lost my best friend, my supervisor, my mentor/guru, my role model, my everything, as well as half of my self.

it has been said that every soul shall taste death. And indeed, that is the truth. we dont know when it will come, or how it will come. we dont know who it will take next, And that is our greatest fear!